The journey has begun..."Oh Joy"!
September 21, 2010
In Oswald Chambers devotional "My Utmost for his highest" The November 7th excerpt makes a statement: "God by His Providence brings you into circumstances that you cant understand at all, but the Spirit of God understands. God brings you to places, among people and into certain conditions to accomplish a definite purpose through intercession of the Spirit in you". The game has begun and I am so over whelmed. I find myself in a place I am totally lost and very uncomfortable...The hospital. Understand that ever since my sophomore year in high school I have hated hospitals. I think that is because my brother and sister were both diagnosed with terminal illnesses that year and we all spent quit a bit of time in them. However despite my fears and preconceived notions, I am here willingly and in the middle of the worst run of testing I can remember. I hate it!
I am doing sleep studies,Cardiology testing, Pulminology testing,Vascular testing, Gastric testing,and Mental health studies. The Barriatric surgeon says he wants to be absolutely sure that I am healthy enough to handle the trauma that surgery will entail. The doctor says that if all goes well I should expect to lose 150 lbs in the first six months. That would bring me down to a weight of 205 lbs.I can handle that ...but I secretly want to reach 175 lbs but we shall see. I have found it very hard to stay mentally and spiritually content during this time period as any result of any test could bring a hault to the whole thing, crushing my dream.
I have held to the scripture during this time as a oh so familiar guide.
" Be on your guard. Don't let the sharp edge of your expectation get dulled by the parties,eating,drinking,and shopping...Pray consistently that you will have the strength and will to make it through everything that's coming and end up on yo
ur feet before the son of man". (Luke 21:34) Oh how I needed to hear that as I walk through this time. I at times feel like I am walking alone down this road. However just when I feel abandoned, my father has been there to pick me up and walk me through this uncomfortable time just as my heavenly father has countless times before. Thanks Dad.! My Dad has been here to take me to appointments , talk me through my fears,and help out in every way imaginable. I am so glad to have the support that I do.
ur feet before the son of man". (Luke 21:34) Oh how I needed to hear that as I walk through this time. I at times feel like I am walking alone down this road. However just when I feel abandoned, my father has been there to pick me up and walk me through this uncomfortable time just as my heavenly father has countless times before. Thanks Dad.! My Dad has been here to take me to appointments , talk me through my fears,and help out in every way imaginable. I am so glad to have the support that I do.
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