Swinging through the days...

Swinging through the days....

October 19th, 2010

Well time is marching on and each day that goes by I find myself more and more nervous as well as excited in the same breath. I am ready for a new chapter in my life. I'm ready for allot of things to change not just my weight...but the other stuff will come with time. I'm just glad I decided to put one foot in front of the other and make a decision for me, about me, because of me, for my own good. Tammy Trent says: "When God is in the time of transition and change, what lies ahead is always better than what was before!" I do believe this will be true for me. I have certainly involved him in every aspect of this journey thus far and I don't see that changing any time soon. I just keep putting it in Gods hands everyday and trust that he has things under control. When I begin to fear I remember that familiar verse in Timothy "God has not given us a spirit of fear; But of power and love and of sound mind" 2nd Timothy 1:7 Fear isn't of the Lord so when I fear its the Devil coming in to confuse me and I just cant have that...Ive come Way to far for that.

I had my last pre-op visit yesterday. I did all of my admission testing and sett everything up with the anetheiseologist as well as the nutritionist. The more information I can get the more secure I feel in my decision and I got some fabulous information. It seems that the pre-op diet I have been following is wrong...lol. Instead of 3 shakes a day I can have 6. Hello....That's why I was starving, my body was shutting down from malnutrition...lol I am still having a major problem with the cravings and feeling famished but Ive been told this goes away after the operation. In fact I might not feel hungry for months following the operation due to the nerves healing on and around my stomach. Whoo hooo!!! This will be a first. Actually I truly have never really felt full. I know that sounds crazy but its the truth. Thank God there will be change in that area.During my visit they also changed my surgery date to October 27th 2010, which is just a day later. I'm fine with that, it gives me time to master this all liquid diet thing...lol.After the surgery I will be on clear liquids for another week so I had better get this mental demon kicked in the butt.

My son told me today while we were shooting hoops at the park " Come on Daddy! Push it! You can do it Daddy...I will help you to run faster!" What a cutie but it just broke my heart. I'm the one that is suppose to be helping and pushing him, yet clearly I cant keep up with my little buddy so in turn he feels that he has to help me. This is the main reason why I decided to go ahead with the Gastric Bypass. I cant be an active part in my sons extra curricular activities if I cant even run around a basket ball court. I told him Landon, after Daddy gets better from this surgery he will be able to beat you and win ...so ya better brush up on your skills. He responded with "That's okay Daddy it will be nice for you to win too....lol". What a little man he is.

Since posting this blog I have been overwhelmed by the support and love I have felt from so many of you. Thank you so much. It really does mean so very much and helps me keep on trucking. Thank you so very much. I wanted to share with you a little treat that I learned from my Dad and Mom. We all know that as a Gastric patients or as healthy dieters we will all have to be consuming a ton of protein to stay happy and have energy. Well there is a product called Muscle Milk light that I purchase in Vanilla Cream. I then add a little packet of Starbucks instant coffee which is really fabulous and shake with ice. It is honestly the best Iced coffee Ive had yet,and we all know I'm an iced coffee fean. Try it you will love it.